Truths for me

I suppose there will always be a disparity between how old you feel and your actual age. When I was younger, I imagined that when I'm 26, I would be pretty much there whatever there really means. But here I am and I think I'm not quite there yet. In many ways, I still feel like a junior but it seems like I really should not be feeling this way anymore. My big boss pretty much leaves me to run the files. Even when I send drafts for his approval, his response is same - thank you and please send out to client. My boss says its a good thing because this means big boss trusts me with the work. A junior colleague came by with a problem and I said pretty much whatever came to mind and he said that he did not even think of it.The past two years in practice must have done me some good even though I don't feel like I've grown very much. Maybe its like what Pastor said on Sunday, even when you don't realise it, other people see it.

I hate to admit this but am an adult now and need to learn to take responsibility instead of just sulking about how it sucks or expecting others to solve things for me. Not to say that there isn't help whatsoever because there is and I am thankful. I think its good that this is happening because I know clearly what my priorities are, ie shoes. Hahaha. I kid. But aren't these just lovely?

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Helping out with other people's work is starting to feel like the duty system part II. The obligation is the same, you can't say no. The work is what I don't want to do and the smiles make one feel evil for having such unsavoury thoughts. Am glad my 3 weeks stint is almost up but am also slightly wary that this might be a recurring trend but we'll see how it goes.

The hard work I put in for the appeal we did a couple of months back culminated in a win but the problem is my name on the judgment is completely wrong. I don't know how the court clerk could make such a mistake but it was made.Thankfully, its been rectified but the mistake just made me feel tiny and insignificant.

I feel like I've been walking on eggshells these couple of days. I wonder why it all feels a little fragile.

Boss gets an intern next week and I get to babysit said intern who is likely to be a full decade younger than me. WOE. When did I become an old person?

Inspirational Fridays

Its been a mad mad mad week. The extra work that I talked about came in by way of email setting out my very exciting schedule for the next 3 weeks. Even my boss said it looks like i'm going to be totally swamped. He said if I couldn't cope I should let him know which is super awesome and characteristically nice of him but truth is even if I was totally drowning, I wouldn't say a word. Anyway, am beyond glad its Friday and colleagues and I have plans to leave to on time and go stuff our faces with cheap seafood.

In addition to threatening to cut me off after 6 months, my friends have taken to placing bets on me in front of me. Great guys, i'm sitting right here. And emailing me to give me kind reminders not to be that girl. Haha I don't know what I'd do without all of you. xx